Dreamin

So I'm only posting this because I want to remember it. This dream that I had was one of the most vivid and weird dreams that I have ever had in my life. This post may be a bit disjointed because I'm just writing some deets.

I was working at my job in a hotel that looked very similar to mine when a drunk guy came to the front desk and asked us to get him a bottle of rum. I informed him that we couldn't do that since it was very late at night and we stop serving food and beverage in the hotel at 1 am (which is all legit and has actually happened before). When all of the sudden, this man became enraged and he killed me. He had like super strength I guess and choked me while lifing me above his head. So, I'm laying there dead and then he pulls out a gun and shoots me, I assume to make sure I'm really dead. But alas, I guess I'm some sort of ghost and so I'm standing next to my body and this dude looks up and can see me but just sort of starts talking to me and he's saying he's sorry and what not. So one of the girls that I work with (except I can't really see her face, but I don't think it's actually anyone that I know) runs up and sees me and I don't really remember what happens here. There's some blank space and then my mom is on the island setting up a way to get me back to Texas. Then I'm at my funeral. It's all very strange and I'm sitting there and 2 of my old friends that I don't really speak to anymore and my best friend and my 2 cousins can all see me. I'm a ghost, but not really. They can physically touch me and even people who can't see me move around me. There are a lot of people at the funeral and there's like some sort of tent set up where people have brought a bunch of inexplicable gifts. There are lawn ornaments and sequin diaper bags and lots of little kids clothes and wind chimes, etc. So I'm sitting there kind of just watching people mill around and one of the old friends runs up to me (I should also point out that the 5 people who can see me do not find it strange at all that they can interact with me at my own funeral, like it doesn't even occur to them that talking and breathing and scoping out the scene with the deceased is a little weird) and she says "Leslie! Now that you're dead I don't have to share you with [other old friend] anymore!" and she's so happy and excited, and for some reason I don't care, like at all. I see my best friend across the field and she's smiling and she waves to me. Then I see my mom and she's signing a guest book and she's not crying but she's not talking to anyone, there is someone trying to talk to her and she's just staring down writing in this book. So I get up and I go into the present tent and I'm looking around at everything and when I come out of the tent, everyone is gone. Then I realize that they have gone to the actual funeral and they were all in this park/field just to sign a guest book and meet up. So I am running down this cobblestone sidewalk and it's beautiful. There are these amazing orchids and lillies all along the walls and I'm in some sort of black flowy dress and really comfortable heels and I'm just running trying to catch up to them but I don't see them anywhere but for some reason, I know that this sidewalk leads to a church. So I get to the church and I walk in and it's really ugly and scarce. It looks like a cafeteria. All white with flourescent lights and a bunch of scraggly looking people sitting at formica tables and whatnot and they can all see me. So I ask someone where the funeral is and he tells me that it's down the hall. I'm running down this hall and I pass a black dude in some serious preacher robes. They're all black with gold crosses and shit all over it and I don't think that he can see me and I can see that he's walking towards two people who are standing beside two other coffins. When I start walking towards them with him I see one of the people open one of the coffins and it's full of ashes, and then the preacher starts giving some sort of sermon and I'm trying to get past the two people and coffins but no one is moving and I realize that these people can't see me. Then I'm in another part of the building. This building must be huge or like 3 different churches or something. All of the sudden, I see my two cousins sitting at a table and they just look at me and smile and tell me that I missed it. I start crying and they're laughing and hugging me and telling me that it's ok and that it was beautiful and there were so many people there. I should mention that both of my cousins are pretty tomboyish and they are both dressed in what I can only describe as hideous bridesmaid dresses. One hot pink, one blue. I don't know why. And then I'm sitting on the floor of the church all alone and crying and then I woke up.

Jesus.